Winning the Battle Against Your Mind

I'm currently reading Joyce Meyer's Battlefield of the Mind, and this book is bringing to light so many issues I have kept in the dark due to fear of reliving certain situations. I was compelled to write this blog post upon reading the passage where Joyce referenced David's thoughts and feelings in Psalm 143:4-5.

"So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.  I remember the days of long ago;
    I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done."




I've already acknowledged the hold the enemy has on my mind as it relates to certain situations and ways of thinking, so now is the time to do the work to renew my thoughts and fill my mind with thoughts of God. In David's Psalm, he expresses his feelings of depression and speaks on the gloom and heartache that overwhelms him. That feeling is all too familiar to me. I remember sitting on my bed after putting the babies to bed one night and crying until I couldn't cry any longer. My mind was flooded with my financial struggles and feelings of worthlessness. I felt so defeated as I thought back to every attempt to make extra money, get a new job, heal from past hurts and move on to a more positive and self-loving future. I felt stuck.



Some days I feel that hoping for a brighter future is hopeless. I'm 32 years old and I've experienced so much strife. Many of my days seem robotic. I've gotten used to depression and anxiety and it's as if being hopeful and thinking on positive things is completely out of the norm. To be honest, fighting the negative thoughts of the enemy brings about my anxiety. There's a constant war going on in my mind that affects me spiritually and physically, but every now and then I do as David did. When my home is quiet or when I'm in my car alone, I fight. I close my eyes and cry out to God, fighting to control my thoughts and think on all He has done for me. 



I remember when I first had Baby Boy. It was just the two of us in my cozy apartment. Even though things weren't perfect, I was in love with my son and with life. I didn't grow up feeling loved and I promised to make him feel nothing less, so I painted canvases and decorated to made it feel like home.


We were happy. Well, I lost my apartment a few months after having him due to not getting enough hours at work, and I was already struggling to play catch up. I got home from work one day and all of our belongings were on the curb and were rummaged through by passersby. Luckily, my pastor at the time showed up for us, but we only left with a couple of clothing items a piece.

I became displaced, living with church friends, in shelters, with my mom and then eventually their dad. I wasn't working and no had money coming in. Funding in the shelter wasn't available at the time so I ended up squatting in a house. I did a lot of praying and crying during that time. Eventually I joined a Christian organization, Pinky Promise and started going to the meetings. I met a young lady whose family owned some apartments and I was blessed with my place with no security deposit. 

I could go on and on about that testimony in particular, but I digress, lol. Thinking on that situation alone help me to KNOW that God is working all things out for my good.

"I remember the days of old; I meditate on all Your doings; I ponder the work of Your hands."


Despite what David, or you and I encountered in the past, it's important to remember that God was present THE ENTIRE TIME. On the night I cried and felt defeated, I forced myself to think back on all of my triumphs. The key to winning the battle going on in your mind is remaining grateful and being intentional with training your mind to constantly think on the things of God. Does that mean that you'll never think bad negative thoughts? Of course not. Does that mean you won't want to pop off on Susie at work for acting like your supervisor? Nope, but the phrase "What would Jesus do?" should be more than just a slogan on a wristband or T-shirt. 

Having a mind like God takes time and faith. I'm knee-deep in my journey, but I know what God's word says. It says, "Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus..." (Romans 8:1). God's word tells me that He loves me, that I am more than a conqueror! YOU MUST CONSISTENTLY CAST DOWN NEGATIVE THOUGHTS!  

"This Book of the Law shall not depart out of your mouth, but you shall meditate on it day and night, that you may observe and do according to all that is written in it. For then you shall make your way prosperous, and then you shall deal wisely and have good success." Joshua 1:8


So, light a candle and find a quiet place daily or as much as possible to pray and meditate on how God feels about you and on His promises for your life. I believe with all my heart and soul that my tears and prayers for healing will not return to me void. 

2 comments

  1. Aw, this was a really nice post. Taking a few minutes and actual
    effort to create a very good article? but what can I say?
    I put things off a whole lot and don't seem to get nearly anything done.

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    1. Well, I'm definitely a recovering procrastinator so I know the feeling. Set yourself reminders and leave little notes around and be intentional with making yourself more disciplined. Trust me, it helps!

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