Powered by Blogger.

Everything Must Go!

Last night I experienced a lot of frustration and anxiety to the point I had to put B in his room with his tablet and M on the couch with hers. M was drawing pictures for me and wanted to tell me the story she created, but my mind was stuck and I couldn't shake the desire to explode. Of course I didn't want to blow up on my babies and hurt them emotionally, so I closed my bedroom door, turned off the light and took several deep breaths to keep from crying. 

After about 5 minutes, M pushed open my door just at the anxiety subsided. At that point, I knew I wouldn't get much sleep. I put the babies to bed and showered, hoping to relax. It didn't help, 'cause I crawled in bed and stared at the ceiling for what seemed like hours. My tears began to soak my pillow as I laid there, hot and pissed off. I was exhausted! I just wanted to sleep, so I asked God for peace or a word that would ease my mind and spirit enough to fall asleep. 

I spoke briefly with my friend Ambrea this past Sunday about tithing on our way to a meeting, so my finances were heavy on my mind. I pulled up YouTube on my phone and typed in "Sarah Jakes Roberts tithing." I've been obsessed with her sermons for a while, and knew that a word from her about my fiances was exactly what I needed.

As I began watching, I realized that the message had ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!! to do with finances (rolls eyes), but I was compelled to continue watching. Baabbbyyy, let me tell you that I am so thankful I did. As I stated in a my post "Winning The Battle Against Your Mind", God knows just what you need when you need it. I was looking at my funny money situation as the root of my frustrations, but it's deeper than that. This message brought some of those issues to the surface - issues I purposely buried. 

The sermon was about how Peter denied Christ and how he was still used for God's glory. It blessed a part of me I didn't know or couldn't remember existed. I don't want to go into the details of the message or share the personal issues it brought up (maybe one day I will) 'cause I want you guys to watch it for yourselves, takes notes and be blessed. 

Leave a comment if you care to share your thoughts with me!

Winning the Battle Against Your Mind

I'm currently reading Joyce Meyer's Battlefield of the Mind, and this book is bringing to light so many issues I have kept in the dark due to fear of reliving certain situations. I was compelled to write this blog post upon reading the passage where Joyce referenced David's thoughts and feelings in Psalm 143:4-5.

"So my spirit grows faint within me; my heart within me is dismayed.  I remember the days of long ago;
    I meditate on all your works and consider what your hands have done."

My Home Away from Home - Family Dollar

Family Dollar

I used to be a new hire trainer for the automotive company I work for, and one of the topics we discussed during the first couple days of class was customer retention and brand loyalty. There was an activity that allowed the agents to discuss, in a group setting, their favorite brands and what about the brands made them loyal. Some would mention the manufacturer of their cell phone, TV, vehicle or favorite retailer. The agents chose between customer service and quality of the product(s), and it was always about a 50/50 split.

Of course, my agents always made me participate (rolls eyes). I expressed to them that my favorite brand is Family Dollar, and not many were surprised.

By Your Spirit, God! - New Worship Song

My music playlist is a combination of sultry soul, trap, gospel and a bit of rock. I'd like to think I have a decently eclectic taste in music and EVERYTHING gets played when I'm cleaning my home. B&M and I were cleaning this past Sunday, scrubbing and dancing to Drake, Nickelback and The Roots while eating fruit snacks. In the midst of the sweeping and throwing away mail "Your Spirit" by Tasha Cobbs and Kierra Sheard came on. 
Back to Top